Are you hungry? Are you satisfied? There are two types of hunger. The physical kind, that buckles our flesh and pokes at our mind and body, reminds us of our need for nourishment. And there’s the spiritual kind that launches us into deeper exploration of meaning and purpose.

It was prophesied many times that 2019 was going to be the YEAR OF BREAKTHROUGH. And I believe that, specifically in the body of Christ, many people experienced a breakthrough in one form or another. But, I also believe that many of the same people that have busted through their situation are still waiting for their moment of victory.

I’m not always good with seasonal change. I tend to hang on a little too long and I am slow to adapt. It’s almost like I refuse to recognize the changes as they are posed before me. In the natural, it’s a little more easily understood.

There’s something I’ve learned about myself over the last few years that I’ve been hesitant to admit until very recently. It’s a truth I have only learned through experience. I can’t say I’ve fully accepted it as a part of my identity or if it’s just something I’ve adapted into.

Jesus is in the transformation business. He’s not about remodeling. He wants to rebuild. Many times we want Him to come and just do a little rearranging. Just move some furniture around. Maybe lay down some new flooring. Make things a little more comfortable. Livable. Actually, if we’re being honest, we’re a little more interested in the exterior, right?

There’s something amazing about knowing who you are. Like, really knowing who you are. Knowing who you were designed by and what your purpose is and what you are capable of. It took me a long time (about 33 years) to fully understand the underlying truth behind my KINGDOM IDENTITY.

First off, this post is for anyone who considers themselves a talker. Anyone who has the tendency to speak first and clean up later. Anyone who has an opinion and isn’t afraid to share it. Unfortunately, I have fallen into all three of those at one point or another. So, as you proceed reading this, please know that I am giving advice and counsel to all that fit that criteria and I do not see myself as exempt. I’ve not only witnessed the effects of an unstewarded tongue, I’ve been the victim, and sadly, I’ve also been the offender.

Proverbs 18:22 – He who finds a wife, finds a good thing. And obtains favor from the Lord.

I had a good friend that described my analysis of the stewarding of my “Kingdom Perspective conundrum” as “having one foot in the now and having another foot in the next”. I like that. And It caused me to think about the real issue that was on my heart when I wrote the last blog. Because the fact remains, there really is a problem that arises when I get my dreaming about the next out of balance with my appreciation for the now. And that problem is – people get hurt. Specifically the ones that I’m more connected to.

I have a struggle. Okay, maybe it’s more of a conundrum. If I can be real for a moment (of course I can, it’s my blog and I can do what I want with it) I’d like to just say, I consider myself a dreamer. Not necessarily the sleeping kind. But, the having ideas to change the culture around me kind. I’ve always believed that there was something better. Something bigger. Something that, if I could just tap into it, would set me up with the knowledge, wisdom and courage I’d need to be launched into greater Kingdom Destiny.